What is Brave?

What is brave?
Killing myself doesn’t seem brave,
though brave people die from this disease everyday.
Is it anymore brave to suffer,
to need so much to get through,
to worry those around you?
Right now I don’t feel brave at all.
In improv, Messing says being brave is
“being scared as shit but doing it
anyway with the result of flying.”
Flying seems impossible.
But maybe in this moment,
flying is holding on,
flying is trusting in a better you can’t see,
flying is reaching out when you want to crumble within.
Maybe we are brave and not brave in different ways,
so we use our strengths and borrow the strengths of others.
Maybe that is brave.